Stop This Train

- Before this semester, I've never really been fully aware of the future and where I'm going. My thoughts have been sort of grounded and on the here and now but slowly I'm waking up to the future and how getting older is something I shouldn't worry about. Walking to class the other day I was listening Stop This Train by John Mayer and it touched on the way I was feeling at that moment.

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So scared of getting older,

I'm only good at being young.

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- It's ridiculous when I sit down and think about it. I've got a lot to look foward to as I get older. I want to go places in my life. But something in me can't hold on to that idea. I always seem to recess into what could have been and what isn't instead of what could be.

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- So the only thing for me to do is plan. If I have some dirrection in life its a lot easier to stay focused. I made a list of things I want to do before I die the other night:

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- Own a classic Corvette.

- Turn somebody's life around for the better.

- Spend at least a month in Ireland if not live there for some amount of time.

- Marry somebody I truely love.

- Live in a quiet house on the coast of Oregon.

- Go to a Superbowl and World Series.

- Go on a grand adventure people will remember me for.

- Run a marathon.

- Tell stories of my life to Grandkids.

- Sell a piece of art.

- Write a book.

- Build a car from the ground up.

- Get a career in a job that I enjoy and that I look foward to when I wake up in the morning.

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- A lot of these are really generic and I'm sure more will be added to the list over time, but its a start. I don't wish to be famous or rich when I get older. Just happy. And it starts now.

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So I play the numbers game

to find a way to say that

Life has just begun