Braaaaaiiins.

- My body is confused. I've been fighting off a weird flu thing that seems to flair up at night so I really haven't been sleeping well the last week or so. Throw in a noisy neighbor and 7 am final and you get about 4 good hours of sleep last night. So you'd think after I got back from the test I'd be tired. Nope. I felt as wide awake as ever.

- Even still I figured it'd probably be good to lay down a bit. 5 and half hours late I awoke from the dead.You can barely call an almost 6 hour nap a nap since for some people that's a good nights sleep. Let me tell you though, its a confusing thing to wake up from that and see its the late afternoon. There are times where I feel so alive I can hardly contain it. This was not one of them. I feel like a zombie.

- When this unusual feeling adds to the surreal truth that I'm graduating soon with no clear picture of my future it equals a really weird feeling. I did great this semester. I finished strong. I only have to show up to my last two finals with a pulse and I can claim a 4.0 for my senior year. Am I happy with where I am? I don't know. I've got no clear answer for that right now. I should be and I probably will be, but right now I want something else. What? I don't know. I find it soon I hope.

Finals Week

- Man, I'm having a really hard time focusing on studying. Its seems like I'd rather be doing anything else in the world. No matter where I go I keep getting distracted. Even this blog entry is just a result of procrastination and putting off the inevitable. And its only Monday. Oh Lord.

- Its been a week and a weekend full of lasts. My last college class, last time hanging out here or there, last Tuesday night at old cees, last few days in the library etc. Its surreal. Kimbre's graduation on Saturday made me excited for whats to come. Things are as much in the air now as they've ever been but I'm finally reaching the point where I don't care. I just want to be done with this chapter. The worlds gonna keep on turning at the same speed when I graduate this Saturday and if my past is any indicator I'll end up where I'm supposed to be and I'll find happiness there until things have to change yet again.

Gruuuh

- Ouch. Finals are hitting me like a truck and I've still got a week left til they officially start. I've got a boat load to do and I'm quickly running out of will power to do it all. Doesn't help that I'm getting sick. What started out as scratch in the back of my throat now feels like a layer of mucus that won't be coughed out. I think its the swine flu. Or the plauge. Or maybe even some horrible mix of the two. I'm doomed.

- I hope I do good on my finals. I've put myself in a pretty good position for straight A's again which would be simply wonderful. Even if I don't end up needing them it'd be nice that I proved to myself that when I put my mind to it I can do it.

- Oh man, so much is gonna happen over this next month. My cozy little college worlds gonna implode on me. Lets see what spits out the other side.