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Location: Fort Collins, Colorado, United States

Sunday, July 31, 2005

With A Bang

- Just got back from Super Summer. It was nothing short of incredible. There is a great deal of fun in Christ contrary to the common misconseptions of the world. I love camp and the people at camp. Its my type of environment. Plus, Team America won the vollyball tournament. :) More than that though, it was a real eye opening experience. The spiritual warfare being waged in and around me is intense and shows me that without Christ, I'm never going to get anything done. I'm so determined to keep this from just being another camp/retreat high and stay at that level all year but I'm already finding how easy it is to slip up. Scripture is a wonder gift God has provided for us and its a resource I feel that I don't utilitize enough. God's provided me with the tools to support me in my "desert" of college away from all the creature comforts that make me complacent.

- Kristen's in town for a week. I'm not gonna get to spend most of it with her cause she's gotta divide her time between all her other friends along with me but its good to see what I can of her anyway. It seems like a lot more than 3 weeks since I left Cincinnati. Its amazing how easily we just pick up where we left off.

- Skydiving this weekend. I can't wait! So far we got Shaun Igo, Jordan, Tyler, James, Jared, and me set to go. If anyone else is able to go that wants to go give me a call ASAP.

Saturday, July 23, 2005

Less Than a Month

- So its almost one and in the morning and I realized that I haven't updated in a week and thats kinda bumming me out because I was expecting this to be one of my only weeks off this entire summer. But no. Its SUPRISE!!! FAMILY VACATION!!! So what time better than right now. I've got nothing else to do but sleep and this summer has taught me that thats the first thing to go when time gets in a crunch.

-Either Saturday or Sunday night (I can't remember, thats why I need this journal to keep me from forgetting things) I saw Charlie and the Chocolate Factory with Jon, Jordan, Courtney, Michaela, and Jons friend who I can't ever seem to remember his name despite the fact that I spent all of New Years Eve with him. Hes a cool guy. In short, I loved it. It brought me back to my earlier childhood when the book sparked me imagination and showed me the joys of reading, a passion that, though it hasn't really stuck, has left and incredible mark of happy memories on my life.

- Monday, my entire family went up to Ponderosa where my mom was taking pictures for the camp. It made me look foward to camp a heck of a lot. I love it. I can't wait. Its almost snuck up on me how quickly the summer is going.

- We got back Tuesday afternoon and left Wednesday morning for Glenwood Springs. Though family tensions were difficult, the trip was still a success. We went hiking up to a beautiful lake with an emerald bottom. I sprained my ankle again on the way down after jumping off a rock and landing poorly. Its now about the size of a tennis ball. I'm bankin on a complete recovery by Monday for SS. We also rode a 16.2 mile bike path through the canyon and capped the trip off with a little Whitewater rafting.

- We were home by 3 on Friday and I went and played a competitive but successful game of Risk with Tyler, Cole, Cliff, Jordan, Jared, and Austin. Thats the readers digest version of the last week.

- Camps comming, then Kristen's comming, then skydiving (if I'm able to get it set up), then Oregon, then school starts. Man, life moves quickly.

Friday, July 15, 2005

Water World

- So Water World today was just what the doctor ordered. It picked my spirits up in a way few things could have. God gave us a beautiful Colorado day with lotsa sunshine till the afternoon when the skys got a little darker but our good luck allowed all the rides to stay open all day with the exception of the Toliet Bowls that were shut down cuz some kid took the nickname a little too literally. Water parks are good because even lame rides can be made fun by jumping in the water. There's also an uncanny feeling of bonding when everyone conquers their fears and through positive peer presure and rides the most extreme of rides that they otherwise wouldn't do. I even got a little nervous today on a set of enclosed blue slides that just dropped you into an abyss at a really steep angle. Rides don't make me nervous anymore so it was a welcome fear. It was without doubt a day that I won't forget. Man I love summer.

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

What's it matter anyway?

- Things have had a little harder time of clicking back into normal this week. Its hard to explain. Its like I've suddenly devolped a fear of change. I'm not saying I'm not lookin foward to college. Its just, over these last couple years I established things that make me feel happy and at home and special comforatable and I'm afraid of losing that feeling. Its a very selfish emotion but I can't help it. I'm afraid of what will happen to me without my little cushion. I've realized over these last couple days what it would feel like without them and its forcing me into a little cocoon. Its unhealthy and uncomforatable and I hate it. The fear of the unknown shouldn't be a concern of mine. God's got the best in store for me, I need to just learn to trust him with my life and stop tryin to hold it together myself.

Saturday, July 09, 2005

In a Good Way

- Wow do I have a lot of catchin up to do. I took the day off to myself which was really nice. I guess I really didn't have a choice as I slept through any phone calls that woulda been for me. Oh well. Everyone needs a break every now and then. Well here I go getting ready to write perhaps the longest entry in the history of Blogging. What can I do though? I've got about 2 weeks of events to rehash.

- So, orientation first. It was a lot of fun despite the circumstances. I met a lot of new people and recognized a lot of old familiar faces from high school and overall, I really felt home. I fit in at CSU almost as if it was built for me. Though the informational sessions were mildly helpful at best, the trip could be described as successful based solely on the new level of preparedness and comradery I walked away with. College is gonna be fun. I know thats not all its supposed to be but if I can't enjoy myself and establish a friend base at my home away from home, its gonna suck. Suck is bad.

- So I stayed in my dorm overnight and woke up exauhsted (me and the other kids in my hall decided quiet hours and sleeping was for the school year and instead hung out and chatted all night) and went to some more informational sessions before fixing my for schedual next year (I'm now officially a Psychology major) then taking off on the long drive home.

- I got home late in the evening and was suprised to find that I was leaving the next morning at 500 for my flight to Cincinati with a leg in Chicago (I can't spell it either Courtney) because my plans to leave later in the week weren't looking so hot for me getting on the planes (I was flying standby). The planes weren't even looking good for me getting out there at all so, determined, I decided to try what I could. To our amazment I got on the first two flights that I was trying for. Kristen and her mom picked me up from the airport and I got to thier new house and set up shop in thier basement. We all went to Kings Island (amusment park where Kristen works) in the evening and Kristen and I hit as many coasters as we could before the park closed. I learned the lesson that you should never wearing long pants in Ohio during the summer. It was around midnight and I was standing there in 85 degree heat and suffocating humidity. Stupid me and my Colorado ways. Nobody in Ohio wears long pants in the summer even if they're just jeans. I stood out like a sore thumb. Luckily it was the hottest day of the week so it was kinda downhill from there. And also luckily I packed several pairs of shorts in my great wisdom.

- She didn't know I'd be comming so early so she had to work Thursday. It worked out ok though cuz I was still adjusting to the change in time zones so I slept until about noon Cincinatii time. We went and finished up the coasters and rides at Kings Island that we missed on Wednesday and called it an early night.

- Saturday was one of the real highlights of the trip. Kristen's uncle took me up flying in his WWI biplane in the morning and in the evening we went to the Red's game and sat in her grandpa's season ticket seats right behind home plate. The Reds even found it in them to win a game just for us (thier first win in 7 games) and I got to see Ken Griffy Jr. hit a home run. He was a childhood hero of mine. Red's fans fascinate me. Thier team sucks as bad as the Rockies but that stadium was full nonetheless. I guess when your only other sports team is the Bengals you gotta take what you can get.

- Sunday we went to mass in the morning and to a 4th of July weekend cookout with some of her extended family members in the afternoon. Everybody in Ohio at any social gathering plays a local game called Cornhole where you try to through bean bags through a hole in the top of a wooden box about as far away as a horeshoes stake. Such a stupid game but when I say everybody plays it I mean EVERYBODY. Its like my whole stay there I couldn't get away from it. Just one of the many quirks that makes the area what it is but I won't go into detail because the local culture is probably only fascinating to me.

- 4th of July was fun to. We went to her Grandpa's house by a lake and ate burgers, hotdogs, and shot off fireworks. Later, we watched a massive fireworks display from a local park (where everyone was playing Cornhole) and ate icecream from Graeters, the local gormet icecream joint.

- The rest of the week was filled with water park schenanagins, trips to the pool, more Kings Island visits, eating out at the various local Cincinnati food joints, drive in movies, and much much more. It was good being with Kristen again. We picked it up pretty much were we left off and it felt like she hadn't been gone for an entire month. Getting home was a sort of reality shock for me remembering what being half a nation apart felt like. She'll be visiting the first week in August though with her mom to see me and all her other Denver friends so its not like its goodbye. Just no fun regardless.

- As much fun as it was it feels good to be home. I missed all my family and friends as well as the mountains and definitly the weather. Denver is home to me and being away for a week was a lil taste of what college is gonna be like. Still struggling with mixed emotions regarding leaving but I guess God will provide.

- So thats that. If you read all that I owe you a cookie. Gotta write down the good times so I can count my blessings in the hard times. The summer trucks on. More ahead of me to look forward to. Church tomorrow will be good for me.

Friday, July 08, 2005

Home

- I'm back from a crazy week and a half. Orientation was a blast and so was Kristen and Cincinnatii. I've got sooo many stories but I woke up at 1:30 Denver time this morning and have been traveling all day and am in a desparate need of a nap. I haven't had one since I left. Just wanted to capture the euphoristic mood I'm in before I sleep it off and wake up grumpy again. Well, maybe not grumpy but I don't know if I'm gonna wake up for another week or two so I wanted to post while the experiences are still fresh. So, there we go. I love summer. I love life. I love God. Hes way to patient and benevolent with me. This really is an unforgetable summer.