I said I'm proud. To be. A CSU RAM!

- I love college football, and I love my hall. I went to the CSU-Airforce football game tonight (which happened to be on ESPN) with Laura, Katie, and Joel and I had a blast. It was one of the most exciting games I've watched in awhile and the Rams won. I'm oozing with so much school spirit right now its not even funny. My voice is raw from cheering and my spirits are high from sharing an incredible college experience with people that make it that much better for me. It was a great pick me up. There's a part of me thats dying away but theres so much beauty and good in my life that I can't help but be positive about it. I'm so glad alcohol isn't a part of my life and that I found a great group of friends that share this lifestyle with me. College has either the potential to be the best time of my life or the lonliest and hardest and thanks to these people, its been the best so far. Thank you God. I'm so blessed.

Skeletons

- Be careful of the decisions you make. Many will come back to haunt you years after you make. Think long term. Think about what the consequenses will be. Think if its worth it. If you can't decide, wait on it. I've hurt so many people through my stupidity. If only I figured for the future. Things will never be the same now. I destroyed one of my greatest gifts before I even knew I had it. I will never be the same person and nobody knows who I've become. Inevitably my world will come crashing down as I can't hide myself forever. All this because I didn't take time to think long term. About the consequences. About if it was worth it. I am who I am forever. Make sure you're who you want to be.

Broncos tickets!

- After a sub-par retreat, college reminded me of how much fun it is. I went bowling last night and watched a movie and hung out with my friends until 3. I stood in line today and got my Airforce/CSU football game tickets and tonight I watch Monday Night Football with my crusade buddies and won Broncos tickets. Its been a good day.

- Not a lot of insite in the post today. Sorry.

Over a Month in

- So the first round of tests are over and I got B's on all of them. Thats good enough for me. Especially considering it was my first time taking tests in college combined with the fact that I probably didn't study as much as I should have. Its just, its hard to study when I could be watching a movie or playing volleyball or a board game or whatever. I enjoy people more than I enjoy useless facts and dates. Though most people wouldn't agree, I think I have a nice balance between schoolwork and socializing.

- This weekend I'm going on a retreat to Keystone with Campus Crusade. I really didn't wanna go but I just really feel that God is asking this of me for my life and I'm sure that it'll be so worth it and that I'll come back glad that I went. I missing the first CSU home game and a camping trip and other things that I know for sure that I'd enjoy but I'm taking a chance on God. Time away from the hustle and bustle of it all combined with scripture, something that never lets you down: how could it not be good?

Bruising

- There are times in life where we don't have any idea what to do. I'm having a week of those times. The answers are few and far between and theres really nothing that makes sense anymore. My world has been flipped upside and situations that woulda been easy a couple months ago are impossible now. The answers that make sense are sometimes ovibous but they are really unappetizing. Even in this clarity, the stakes are too high to take a chance that might be regreted, but something needs to be done. My traditional escapes are either gone or they just aren't the same and I'm running out of time. I just don't know what to think anymore and my mind is all over the place.

- Doing the right thing is usually its own reward. Its benefits are obvious and makes it worthwhile. But then there are those times where doing the right thing will cause you problems and incoviences and pain that you may never shake, but its still the right thing. Its been a long time since I've been in this much hurt and uncertainty, but I know more now than I did. I want to think I have it down but they way things have been going recently, its obvious that I don't.

- Life's thrown me for a loup, but its still good nonetheless. College is making me increasingly aware of the signifigance of my existance, even when sometimes I feel utterly insignificant.

"Appreciate the good times,
but don't take the worse for granted,
Because you only get,
so many second chances."

Did you play?

- Wow. College is everything I hoped it would be and more.

- Cliff and Stephen drove down from Greely Thursday afternoon and Tyler, Cliff, Stephen, and I all went up to Estes park to our camping spot to make campfires, shoot off fireworks and just be guys. It was incredible. We climbed up the mountain next to our spot and found giant rock with a hole in it that was about 4 feet in circumference. We proceeded to build a raging bonfire in it and launch fireworks off the side as the sun set on the beautiful mountains of Estes park. I wish I had my camera because it was a life moment. It was also good just to have the old gang together again. I love those guys. We mesh so well and every second with them is a blast.

- Friday was pretty dang good too. I only had one 50 min class and it was at noon so the rest of the afternoon was off for fun. I went to dinner with my hall before me, Jeff, and Adam, met Kim, Ashley, and Keri at the CSU volleyball game. They blew out New Mexico State and after eating, we all went down and played volleyball with the rest of the crew, about 10 in all until the lights went out around midnight. Jeff's friends met us back at the dorm and we played Halo until 2 in the morning and hung out till about 3.

- Tomorrow brings football with some great games and whatever the evening has to offer. But, its 3:30 in the morning so I think its my bedtime.

Only the Beggining

-I'm happy up here. I truely am. Colorado State is my home now and I love it. I have no idea how I'm going to manage once school is out and I can't stay up till 2 in the morning watching old crappy baseball movies with friends, or hanging out in the hall when I should be doing hw, or going to Broncos football games, or watching them on TV or ultimate frisbee, sleeping in, volleyball. AHHHH. Its beautiful. I really, really wish I had more time and drive to update this thing. You can only be a college freshman once and so far, its been a ride to never forget. My new friends will never replace my old ones and leaving showed me who they are, but I'm making bonds for a lifetime here. I have an 8 o clock tomorrow so I should go but thats whats new with me. Things aren't always easy up here, but they are definantly fun.

Why Worry

- Man, I'm getting really bad at keeping this thing updated. I think its sheer lazyness. I wanna have my first year of college written down too so I better get over it.

- I'm setting into the rythem of college. I'm working well with my schedual and getting hw that needs to be done done. I'm getting worse about the reading but I figure its not too important as its always the same stuff they lecture over. Its taking some getting used to having something to do every night and forcing myself to go to bed so I don't stay up the ENTIRE night as opposed to most of it.

- I can't bieleve CSU lost. Man, this is going to be hard on me cheering for a team that sucks so bad when I'm used to cheering for a team that barely loses. Thats all I gotta say about this.

- Peace and Chicken Grease

The Dips

- You know, even when things aren't going so hot, life is still beautiful. Never forget that.

Football

- I LOVE college football. I thrive on a good game and watching Oklahoma lose. Right now they are behind to TCU 10-0 in the third quarter. After that I get to watch CSU dominate CU and THEN I get to watch my Longhorns on thier season opener against LA Lafayette. I love it. Oh yeah, schools good too.